Back to "Normal"

So I am slowly but surely returning to my "normal" existence. Whew! These last two weeks have been quite the wild ride. I am drained. Emotionally, physically, mentally. Thank you to everyone who offered such support throughout this time. It really means a lot to me. CL even offered me a place to chill out! You rock!

Isn't it funny how different people handle grief and mourning? I had a front row seat to observe all the different reactions. I was amazed at how many people just stepped up to the plate and took care of things without even asking what was needed. Two of my second cousins (bare with me, we are Mexican and my extended family is extremely ginormous!) really blew me away. They were both at the hospital every single day, without fail. One would bring donuts and coffee in the morning, sandwiches at lunch and more coffee in the afternoon. They both drove my great-aunts all around and took care of them. They cooked food for the gathering after the service. Just overall so selfless in their assistance and support.

And then I had the second cousins that I thought would be there and just weren't. Hmmm.

However, the biggest thing for me was how much time I got to spend with my cousins (first) and be there for them and them for me. Although we all would rather have gathered for a different reason, it was good just to be together. We all gave each other huge hugs when we saw each other (even if it had just been a few hours) and we all cried and held hands when needed. It was so special.

But I never could've gotten through this whole ordeal without my brother. He has truly been my rock throughout these two weeks and I am so grateful. We were very close before and even more so now. I truly love him with all my heart and so grateful that I have him.

So, I don't want to bring anyone down during the holidays, so no more sad, sappy stuff. Thank you all for being patient with me and not abandoning me. And at Christmas this year, be sure to appreciate and hug every single member of your family. Even the ones that smell funny. Do it for me and my Grandmother!