I Need a George
Sometimes I feel like Lennie (from Of Mice and Men for my illiterate readers). You know how he loved the little animals so much that he would just squeeze them to death? I feel like that when I get a new friend (or "friend"). I get so excited, I just want to be with them all the time. I want to squeeze them and not let them go. I'm afraid that I might scare them off. I can't help but be clingy!! I think I have abandonment issues.
I wonder why that is? I guess have issues with just not feeling "good enough" for people. I feel that if I am not constantly pleasing or paying attention, they will leave for someone better. I suppose it could be because pretty much every guy I have ever dated has cheated on me. And while I have had the same close friends for years, I am afraid that they are going to get sick of me, or they only hang out with me because they've known me for so long and they just can't cut the ties.
I don't mean to be so depressing, I just feel scared that people don't like me enough to stick around.
posted by MomMega: mothersmilkblog.com @ 10:04 PM
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Just popped by to tell you I'm not going to be reading your blog any more. I found another one...
Dude, that Ian is a dick.
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(*.....silence......*)
(On reflection, Ian has decided not to let himself be teased....)
(Oh, and CL - I have now decided I like Mel more than you...)
*waves*
Me! Me! I'm here! I'll stick around! I like you blog friends more than the few I have in real life. Why couldn't you all live here?
(I do understand how you feel though, I get that way too. For example I am sure if you all lived here you wouldn't even be my friend because you're all too cool for me! No, really. :))
I'm really surprised by this post Mel. I can't imagine anyone being a bum toward you. From the limited knowledge I have from your blog, you seem so sweet. Personally, I like you a lot. (Lot of good that is being 3000 miles away.)
Tell you what, if someone else screws you over, your blog buds will have to come for a visit and kick some loser ass.
Sounds to me like you're probably too good for some of the people you've known, not the other way around.
It's definitely the other people's loss for not wanting to hang out with you. Besides, you're so much better than they are anyway. :)
I think it's hard to find new friends. I mean I make a lot of acquaintances, but to find someone new you really like is hard. I get the same way when I meet someone I really want to get to know. I think it's because there are so few available.
I have to say, I appear to have made better new friends by blogging. I think you are absolutely fabulous. You're funny, intelligent, and always interesting. I think real friends will squeeze you back, hopefully not to the bring of death.
Also, not that anyone really cares, but Of Mice and Men was the first book I ever read that made me cry. It is still one of my favorites.
PS. My boyfriend's dogs are named Lennie and George. George looks like a white mop and has seizures, but is 100% cute. If you want to borrow him, I can ask.
It's natural to want to hold onto a good thing :)
it IS tough to make friends... i do that, too... wanna cling onto a good thing...
i live close enough to kick anyone's ass that fucks with you. just say the word.
Hey Mel, I'm heading down to LA next weekend, we should hang out.
See? See?? I *knew* me and Cat were right about you guys!
Well, the signs were all pointing that way, Ian. And you don't see either of them saying they're coming up to Canada or down to Australia. They're sticking together.
Humph.
Remember, Lennie gets a big silver bullet to the dome from George, so you better chill with the overbearing attitude. And, if you ever have a son, you might turn him gay with all your overbearing traits. You own your feelings and no one can make you feel anything. When in doubt, look at your picture online, your hot (live it up).
I don't know how I feel about that anonymous comment. It was all "you suck!" then they tried to soften it a little "but you're hot!" Dude.
hrm... i'd go with the "you're hot" part. don't listen to the rest of it.
...who is this "Annonymous" anyway? Don't listen Mel, you're great in every way...
Thanks guys, you are all awesome!!
Peachy, I soooo want to borrow George! How soon can he be here? Whenever I am at my parents I always get lots of cuddling time in with their "baby", Benji. He always cheers me up!
YBob, thanks for the nice thoughts. It is good to know that even 3,000 miles away, there is someone out there who has my back.
Ditto to you, Grace! It is very comforting to know that you and Nina both go through the same thing with friends. I guess as we get older, it does get harder to make friends because we prefer quality over quantity...weird, huh?
Now, Ian and Cat, what am I going to do with the two of you??? True, I don't have any immediate plans to go to Canada or Australia, BUT at least I am not making plans to visit another man on my honeymoon (Caaaaaaaattt!!! hee hee)!! You two are hilarious. If I could, I would be in Australia or Canada in a heart beat (with oyster crackers smuggled in my bag).
CL, are you really coming down??? Oh, we are sooooo gonna meet for a beer! Email me and let me know the details! (Ummm Grace, we may need you as back up...)
Anonymous...hmmm...I am very flattered at being considered "hot"...however, that only goes so far. I would hope that I would be liked more for my personality or wacky sense of humor...And I do think it is natural for people to feel certain ways as a result of other people's actions...it's just humor nature.
I WANT OYSTER CRACKERS!!!
So, when are you coming up, huh? huh? HUH????
Soon, we;ll have snow and you can frolick and play in my yard with my dog and I can sit in the kitchen and watch you whilst eating soup with oyster crackers. And You can come back in and watch me get drunk on two shots of whiskey (the Irish kind, just so Ian doesn't get all "proper-spelling nazi" on me again. :))
It'll be a hoot and a half!
I'm not a Nazi! Oh, unless you mean that you want me to dress up for you, of course...
I was not saying she sucked. Just to own your feelings. Very powerful stuff, that's all. Ownership is a great thing. And it doesn't hurt that Mel-e-Mel is hot stuff (baby tonight). If I were her I would spend countless hours checking myself out all the time.
Oh give me a break. What are you, like twelve?
No, silly, I'm like 15. tee hee
Oh that's good. That's really good.
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